另類人

Fallen Flowers

只要景是無限遠,地方就立即可變得何其大。
卻旅行跟本不怕地方有多細,反而是離開一下家這種感覺的反差才是旅行的箇中要因。

Go-to Hi-top

澳門地方極細的確是事實,我還記起一次澳門工幹後遊走夜街小巷,平常基本上不會特意上夜街的我,就是這次真實地把自己當作記實攝影師一樣,用照片記錄這有觸感的短暫遊歷。所有東西都可令我雀躍,不談人和事,即使是普通的街燈、巴士站、路牌、什至垃圾都成為了我眼睛掃描的對象。比著平常我本地日常的行程,一切都是理所當然,看著(基本上不用看)交通燈過馬路、乘地鐵/巴士、前往目的地的方向大概都了解或甚至瞭如指掌。

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假若將自己放進從不會落入行程選擇中的角落,自己也會少有地細看身邊的一切。

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Nature and art

雖則我出門旅行次數雙手也可以數出,坐飛機旅行的次數更少,見聞非常有限,但事實我對某些關心的國家一樣好奇,甚至我自誇一點説比部分人更好奇。他們的生活是怎麼樣、喜歡吃的食物是否他們的本地菜、他們對國家地方又有什麼見解等等。只是機會沒到吧…(常安慰自己),或自己沒把旅行放在自己要做清單中。

Calligraphy

我媽常説看電視播出的旅遊特輯看世界便當去了旅行吧。我的家庭便是這種不太喜歡廢力把金錢花到吃喝玩樂中,非常有違禁的意味。這足以令我認為自己有別於主流人,與社會脫了節。有時我猜想,到底自己是因為性格內向或是跟本沒到過親友/同事/朋友口中的旅遊勝地,我根本沒法答上咀,分享開心經歷、手信、當地吃過的東西等等…這感覺猶如言語不通。古人的 ‘讀千卷書,不如行萬里路’ 的確有另一番見解。

Self

性格可能是我的一部份,由成長背景及歷程中轉化,我就偏偏不自覺地走上了另類再另類的那一種。其實,身邊的人大多數都跟著去做同樣相似的行為成為公認主流的常態,原因是沒有人想當上古怪的另類人。儘管我改變,主流人一看便就知。只有回歸自我,做好自己,深信總會有屬於自己的一條道路。

Lanterns

另類人,一點也不易做,怕亦怕不來,因為早已習慣了。

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空間工程

Hop High

走出有別主流、需以求救模式之下生活的一眾,缺不是看不到可能性,只是自己需要找一個出口給自己自私地活著。這種生活最可怕的莫過於接受現實。

The remaining Sham Shui Po

都市人不自覺地被形形色色的四周像要把你吃掉的感覺,像這樣沒完沒了的都市生活中尋回一些安寂基本是不太可能的事。社會上給大眾的心靈空間與公眾共享空間般越走越小越窄,可能性也被一系列一籃子規則一一被鎖著,公關立法制度加上光速媒體的網上凝聚力量,你可想出一些無方不反的公營/城市規劃項目嗎? 人越多利益就越變得復雜,萬一經動了大眾神經就顯得政府無能、無力,公關成災非常容易。 這一切不是普通市民可決定,與其不在掌握之中就倒不如不去理反而自己可來得清靜,不是自己因而變得冷漠,反而自覺自己所掌握可做的還是來得要緊。從來都是自己帶來自己無必要的愁是最不智的。

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對上一個更新已是一個月多前,也正是一頓工作項目的前後,我自覺一個長休的可能性便決意給自己一些空白。有趣的事便來,我竟把我平常10平方尺的空間做出了一個大改動,我提出改動議案及家人協助下騰出足足36平方尺。對我而言,這就是我自己的一大個天地了。 更加難以想像的是我非常用心地打造這36尺,因我意識到我的現狀及短中期的未來,我不甘心我沒條件搬出還要住在令眼球極不舒服雜物滿佈的地方。家是要舒適,是要有想像,我便膽粗粗著手向”如果我可以”的方向構思。

Selfie

多得瑞典家居令我看到一系列(家居示範)的可能性,發覺空間少不代表沒可能。反而是需要了解自己的個人行為喜好來出發,其除的是傢私本身設計和你的心思(如燈光、佈置等等)。 短短兩星期,我差不多每天流連於傢私店,用盡心思想像佈局和格價,無悔地購下需要的每一件,也當上了不少天搬運工人。 這是我人生第一次買下傢私,心如自己搬入新居,注入了些正力量。室內設計的確是一門學問,有人可以用上設計師,我卻反而覺得自己一小步地著手來得多麼有情趣。

MK Night

學會雜物管理、調整自身習慣便是其餘持續性的環節,自己必記的是所有購物行為最理想是補充性,皆因每購一件代表另一件成為多餘物,只會增加自己煩惱。

這是我的家居101。 雖則不是全屋的改變,但已足夠調整一下環境。 現在,我可算正式有一個工作和閱讀空間。

發酵與浮現

I Run

最近的一個拍攝自由工作令自己體會多了一點點自己的極限和限制。趕工的急切性可能是只一主要因素,我掌控着客人公司的一大部分工序排列,也正正就是這樣感覺到了自己”忽然”變得何其重要。最初想起也覺得什為漫長,還要夾著些未知原素在內,當時的 ”完工便是目標” 在末段這一整星期長長不眠夜中發酵。結果當客人看到了成品便何其開心,鬆了一口氣。

I Chok

回首多月以來的工作機會這算是時間最緊、最長,的確辛苦,還要比所有長工辛苦得很多。(幸好數剪接影片中的一句又一句的激勵真言令自己安落下去,得以堅持下去)

Hong Kong Island Oasis

我想: 像這般繼續下去做我的半個自由工作者可行嗎?  還是,怎樣可改變一下? 需要與商業標準(器材、人手、表達手法、平面設計、動畫…) 來看齊這個結我還沒打開之下、收支又失衡、獨狼的工作方式、自己能力、行業未來發展的焦慮等等,很多當初不會想的東西就是這樣浮現出來。

I jump

影片不再只是最初眼看輕易單純一段一分幾鐘而已的片段東西了,也不是近似我興趣以外的一件普通事了,背後的遠超越自用相片的後期調較。 可否為生賺到基本過活才是一大考驗。 我可不動用存款地、加上供養父母之下支持生活了8個月,對我而言已經不簡單了。 經濟能力便是生存能力,對吧?

反差

Love

曾有想過如果人類從不需要睡覺的生活會怎樣嘛? 可能會如同行屍般日日等另一日、另一小時、另一分鐘、下一秒。又或者其實時間變得還要實用,每天有更多時間工作(可怕),或妄想一下可擁有更多私人時間做你一直很想做的事。那麼睡覺便只是一種如毒般的行為。

Utpoia

確實在世的一切生物不可不休息,沒有休息人類可以死亡,沒有休息你我可以變得精神失常,沒有工作效率可言。心理正常的人也會不斷有異想,不是幻覺而是負面情緒的激增。

睡覺是人體作息不可多得的一環,而我在部分時間把它視作成人世的逃避 – 一處被避難所。受到不如意的事接受不來,一睡了之。 接受不了自己便放棄一回再算吧。以酗酒以作短暫解脫的朋友,大有人在。我把酒視作品賞之用,無論有多愁,它一定不可能喝多。

Up Down

最近的一系列自由工作夾撃之下,帶來了不少煩惱,不單單只是時間不夠用的普通因素。我在想如果人(不只是我)可不用睡可趕工那有多好呢。又有在想這樣辛苦的下一步是否一定可以平坦? 假如工作環境改變了,我是否可能沒這樣多猜想?一個又一個的沒完問題其實我跟本有大本個答案,我只是想可以有另一個可能嘛?

The Other You

現在剩下的我只有僅餘的一點點意志,完全日夜顛倒了的我也只好跟著水流再走走。

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今次打破常規以母語編寫,是完全有別於以往希望可以因共通語言走到更遠的地方。我一直在想香港人的故事有多少外地人會想明白呢,不如我寫給有緣人、寫給自己吧。

(To the English readers: It’s been my on my wishlist for a while that I somehow want to switch back to my language, to express in a way that’s more intuitive to me. It’d make more sense to myself and whoever the local lucky ones that stumble upon and may share thoughts and reflect.)

Illusion

Stirred up sky

I’m right at a city where every hipster kid wishes to visit at least once in their life. It’s quite a statement now that it suddenly popped out of my head after watching a youtuber guiding through the cities and a number of foreign people that actually stays in Hong Kong.

Watching guides of Hong Kong have benefited myself in a way on things I normally do would not take it for granted. It allows me to reflect and appreciate although I cannot travel as many as others, I get to live in a city where everyone wants to visit.

Work to build

Maybe I do not have the luxury to experience the high-end part of the city in substantial ways, I take it as a smaller population’s activities. After all, it’s still an attraction to the world and foreign population. It’s an illusion to many of us locals to live life in an alternative way/their ways. On one side, the social media allows us to peek through other people’s lives which forms an illusion to allure yourself; On the other side, we still have our pals from our childhood living (if not better) in a relatively similar lifestyle. What’s the norm, does it matter when we’re not supposed to compare? Many says at the end of the day we’re all the same, sleep on a bed. It’s painful to not compare, you just have to be super disciplined.

Squares

Give a pad to your own shoulder, it’s not all that bad after all. The key is to create your own space. I’m not referring to a physical space, but more of a your happy ritual. Whether it’s habit, hobby, activity, anything that comforts yourself, it’s something for yourself (or can be shared with a partner). When you know this is something that nobody can take away from you, you’d naturally be comforted.

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3 months have passed since my last proper hike. All things happened for a reason, except mine occurs to be always spontaneous. If it wasn’t a random conversation sparked up at an event, I wouldn’t bother to pack and head out early. I mentioned about this route that I considered the hardest (out of the blue). It was the steepest one I had climbed in the early days. Then the conversation got cut off by whatever reason, or just me not able to continue on or switch topic. It was all awkward anyway at the event without anyone I know.

Sunset

I revisited to my first steep hiking experience. It was when I wore my jeans and walking shoes. Now when I recall the entire experience, it was all different. It’s different the fact that I did not carry that same motivation to conquer the peak as I’d done already. It’s different the fact that I now know how to climb up and down, and to pace myself; though I used a different and longer path this time.

It’d always been a test to my endurance and determination. I wanted to see if I can still do it. My question follows, do I still want to?

Unlike my previous experience which left my legs sore for almost a week. My legs were fine the day after. I notice I needed extra rests at the hike which I normally would suck up until reaching the finish line. That can be explained with the absence of cardio exercise and the prolong period of time away from the mountains.

Action!

Hours

A tiny compact zoom camera (not typical of me) snapping beside of many unknown strangers (for a little while, they thought I was a curious pedestrian).

Unseen

It was a bit out of the blue when I got asked to perform a behind-the-scene photoshoot in a video shoot. It’s random not because of how little (but enough) I know about this person, it’s because I did not ever expect anyone would come to me for non-business related help. Maybe it’s career-related, but you get it. As I arrived at the meeting point, I did not expect there’d be that many personnels involved when I arrived at the meeting location.

The Actress

The nature of behind-the-scene is just my game. I’d always wanted to photo-document the unseen, behind the curtain, out of the spotlight.

I understood I would not be there if I weren’t asked to be in it. I treated it an experience of my life. I met the director, filming crew, actresses, makeup artist, coordinators and even the executive producer flew from Southeast Asia. It was all so magical even now when I look back. A director that was so vocal giving out direction to his crew like a coach/chief detective. There was the makeup artist busy handing out a portable electric fans for the actresses in between each scene. At one point we had 20 people on a set. There were 2-3 SUVs carrying all of us around in the district, though I only rode twice together.

Tangled wires

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6 months of my re-newed life has passed, I see myself have been able to read, able to realize what’s a good place to read, able to read the topics I’m into. It’s my transition from hiking through the mountains to reading through the passages. Unfortunately, that would not allow me to create any photographic content for you all. Worry not, photographer can always find ways to visualize moments in  broken pieces and put them back together.

The Award Winner

Roses

This trip would not exist if it was not the HK Food & Culture book I participated in the making. The book was selected among 5 others nominees in the Asian Cuisine under Asia Region at an important cook books Oscar. We were invited to join at the award ceremony in Yantai, China. Together with our author and translator/coordinator, we flew over to the northeast part of Mainland. There were hiccups in miscommunications here and there. In the end, we were able to got over it. Not only we knew nothing about the city and surroundings, we did not believe there’s any place that we thought it’d be fun for us. It’s truly a trip of a kind for us.

Pavilion

The location we stayed at was the Development District in Yantai, about an hour drive to the downtown. The district was mostly a property developing zone with hotels by the promenade along the infinite coast. The entire time at the hotel I saw South Koreans. I learned that Yantai is one of the closest travel destinations for them. It was not what I intended to be seeing at a zone without a lot of nearby attractions. The district can be stranded on its own.

Malt Sugar Doll Master

The beauty at their scattered tourist attractions, such as the Ancient Penglai Pavilion, the long Golden Coast, mesmerising Tianma Bridge are just so underrated. And the tourists map was misleading as if the places were in manageable walking distance. They’re just taxi rides away and basically hire for half a day.

Penglai

As I sat on a taxi looking out the window, I was amazed by a series of things their highways are now very well built, totally reminds me of the States. Real flowers are just too real not to be fake at the Penglai Pavilion park. Structures at the promenade looked more advanced and modern than ours in Hong Kong. All these made me questioned when our city dynamo (the government and elected legislators) will wake up and look around what needs to be done in order to catch up. In many areas, we’re just doing an average job by not improving the hardware. If our city continues to divide, all of us will suffer the consequence.

Flowers

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Mom and Son Statue

And the winner goes to … our book! That’s right, even I was shocked for a brief moment as I walked from all the way back to the stage. We all went up to the stage and received the certificate, as well as providing a brief thank you speech. I said “Hong Kong is such a tiny place in the world, it’s such an honor stand on the stage in front of all of you guys from around the world.” We received hugs, handshakes and congratulations from the people we had met over there. I was overwhelmed by all these respect and recognition even I was just a photographer for the book.

Lead the way

This event was a nice gathering with all the food related professionals on earth. We met writers from France, Portugal, Sweden, Japan, South Africa and more. Maybe at times, the common English we used were slightly broken; we got to connect to one another by a bit more patience and listening.

Calligraphy

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Mom and Son

“Excuse me, I can’t put these 3 rolls in the X-ray scanner.” The conversation between me and the Chinese custom officials went on for a few short minutes. The scanner has labelled ‘film safe’, I totally got fooled by it and the officials. I wish there’s a form I could fill out for manual inspection. 

Random Playground

It’s the last thing I want to see, that is to mess up my few days of travelogue. And this is what exactly happened. These cine films looked like expired polaroids. Not sure if it’s too good of a thing?