遲來的初哥

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如果人生只有…年,你會想怎樣過?

Late Visitors

這正是腦子不斷在迴響住的一句話。 畢業十年,回看理歷的一刻,事業尚未達標準,談不上有進入過有名的公司,更談不上有什麼高薪的職位。

跌入了舒適帶就不會懂得如何去向, 盡管當時的我常常提起想怎樣又這樣,結果都是一樣,停留着。

我不甘心此生沒還試過其他職業,還未知其他的可能性,幸好的是還有部份光陰,更幸運的是暫時還有一副超年輕的貌相,不去試就真的走不回頭。 ”你夠竟有幾想要這份工?” 便就是這樣寫了在臉上。

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月頭,我獲得航空公司邀請面試,甚麼是像似找對了公司,我開始理解。 該總部有跨國公司的類似環境,或許更像一所大學或商場,有美食廣場 (不是canteen)、咖啡店、超市、銀行、髮型屋; 佈景可能一樣,角色的轉換就令整體看起來不平凡了,我説的就是他們的空中服務員。 這句 ”這真的不可能吧!” 就是不自覺地自言自語地說了數次,經過挑選專業訓練後的自信型像,太有感染力呢。

面試前多天準備有如期考一樣,或者說,比期考更不一樣的是我鬥的不只是紙上的問題與答案,而是個人肯定的表現和印象,我從來未試過畢業後有這動力去付出,如被喚醒的感覺。

當日,5時15分已起床,洗澡和準備早餐,我不敢外出吃快餐,就是怕食物有機會不干淨影響該天的任務,更特意弄了咖啡為自己提升精神。 事實上,這一連串倒數,已令我前兩晚過份緊張睡不著,結果我跟計劃一樣早了不少到達目的地。 我找了一張近主要通道的台坐下,值此想感受公司的氣氛之下做最後的準備,什麼都已預備好,問了自己: “你有多想穿上制服成為他們一份子?”

總括而言,我表現了自己,這公平一對一面試的機會亦令自己重拾被尊重的感覺。
取錄與否,力已盡,無悔可言。 現在就只有幻想。

此刻,像似編寫一個進行式的劇本章節一樣。

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數天後,又是另一政府工體能測驗/小組討論,平常心對待便好,的確太多人爭了,是個可讓你去試、又不是你一定需要的職位。換角度以部門來看,這方式遴選我理解的。

另類人

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Fallen Flowers

只要景是無限遠,地方就立即可變得何其大。
卻旅行跟本不怕地方有多細,反而是離開一下家這種感覺的反差才是旅行的箇中要因。

Go-to Hi-top

澳門地方極細的確是事實,我還記起一次澳門工幹後遊走夜街小巷,平常基本上不會特意上夜街的我,就是這次真實地把自己當作記實攝影師一樣,用照片記錄這有觸感的短暫遊歷。所有東西都可令我雀躍,不談人和事,即使是普通的街燈、巴士站、路牌、什至垃圾都成為了我眼睛掃描的對象。比著平常我本地日常的行程,一切都是理所當然,看著(基本上不用看)交通燈過馬路、乘地鐵/巴士、前往目的地的方向大概都了解或甚至瞭如指掌。

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假若將自己放進從不會落入行程選擇中的角落,自己也會少有地細看身邊的一切。

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Nature and art

雖則我出門旅行次數雙手也可以數出,坐飛機旅行的次數更少,見聞非常有限,但事實我對某些關心的國家一樣好奇,甚至我自誇一點説比部分人更好奇。他們的生活是怎麼樣、喜歡吃的食物是否他們的本地菜、他們對國家地方又有什麼見解等等。只是機會沒到吧…(常安慰自己),或自己沒把旅行放在自己要做清單中。

Calligraphy

我媽常説看電視播出的旅遊特輯看世界便當去了旅行吧。我的家庭便是這種不太喜歡廢力把金錢花到吃喝玩樂中,非常有違禁的意味。這足以令我認為自己有別於主流人,與社會脫了節。有時我猜想,到底自己是因為性格內向或是跟本沒到過親友/同事/朋友口中的旅遊勝地,我根本沒法答上咀,分享開心經歷、手信、當地吃過的東西等等…這感覺猶如言語不通。古人的 ‘讀千卷書,不如行萬里路’ 的確有另一番見解。

Self

性格可能是我的一部份,由成長背景及歷程中轉化,我就偏偏不自覺地走上了另類再另類的那一種。其實,身邊的人大多數都跟著去做同樣相似的行為成為公認主流的常態,原因是沒有人想當上古怪的另類人。儘管我改變,主流人一看便就知。只有回歸自我,做好自己,深信總會有屬於自己的一條道路。

Lanterns

另類人,一點也不易做,怕亦怕不來,因為早已習慣了。

Window to the epic power

Illusion

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Stirred up sky

I’m right at a city where every hipster kid wishes to visit at least once in their life. It’s quite a statement now that it suddenly popped out of my head after watching a youtuber guiding through the cities and a number of foreign people that actually stays in Hong Kong.

Watching guides of Hong Kong have benefited myself in a way on things I normally do would not take it for granted. It allows me to reflect and appreciate although I cannot travel as many as others, I get to live in a city where everyone wants to visit.

Work to build

Maybe I do not have the luxury to experience the high-end part of the city in substantial ways, I take it as a smaller population’s activities. After all, it’s still an attraction to the world and foreign population. It’s an illusion to many of us locals to live life in an alternative way/their ways. On one side, the social media allows us to peek through other people’s lives which forms an illusion to allure yourself; On the other side, we still have our pals from our childhood living (if not better) in a relatively similar lifestyle. What’s the norm, does it matter when we’re not supposed to compare? Many says at the end of the day we’re all the same, sleep on a bed. It’s painful to not compare, you just have to be super disciplined.

Squares

Give a pad to your own shoulder, it’s not all that bad after all. The key is to create your own space. I’m not referring to a physical space, but more of a your happy ritual. Whether it’s habit, hobby, activity, anything that comforts yourself, it’s something for yourself (or can be shared with a partner). When you know this is something that nobody can take away from you, you’d naturally be comforted.

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3 months have passed since my last proper hike. All things happened for a reason, except mine occurs to be always spontaneous. If it wasn’t a random conversation sparked up at an event, I wouldn’t bother to pack and head out early. I mentioned about this route that I considered the hardest (out of the blue). It was the steepest one I had climbed in the early days. Then the conversation got cut off by whatever reason, or just me not able to continue on or switch topic. It was all awkward anyway at the event without anyone I know.

Sunset

I revisited to my first steep hiking experience. It was when I wore my jeans and walking shoes. Now when I recall the entire experience, it was all different. It’s different the fact that I did not carry that same motivation to conquer the peak as I’d done already. It’s different the fact that I now know how to climb up and down, and to pace myself; though I used a different and longer path this time.

It’d always been a test to my endurance and determination. I wanted to see if I can still do it. My question follows, do I still want to?

Unlike my previous experience which left my legs sore for almost a week. My legs were fine the day after. I notice I needed extra rests at the hike which I normally would suck up until reaching the finish line. That can be explained with the absence of cardio exercise and the prolong period of time away from the mountains.