What if I was smarter and wiser?
What if I did not suck in exams?
What if I hadn’t study abroad?
What if the international friends I made had all become locals?
What if I picked another major?
All these wonders came out of nowhere when I visited the Hong Kong University (HKU). To return to a university campus, it feels like a place I’m familiar with and yet so distant. Everyone passes by my shoulders could be someone special knowing how much they’d been through with all the public exams. I do hold plenty of respect for the local graduates. They’ve accomplished 1/3 of their lives unless they pursuit for higher research degrees. The other 2/3 would be their career and marriage/family.
It all sounded so formulated but it’s true, look around.
It’s such an odd feeling now when I think of it. When I used to be in the campus where I studied, I just didn’t seem to know anyone. The whole place just all felt so temporary, almost as if I did not belong there. Looking back all those years where I lived, where I hung out, where I’d travel, all the people, things had all became just memory. It existed but unreachable again to me.
I have brought nothing back but only by my memory.
I wondered what if I met another group of university schoolmates like in high school. Would I be connecting with them in town, instead of where my university schoolmates are locating internationally? I do not know.
As many have said ‘live for the moment’, who cares what the past is like while we’re in present tense.